Not now, not like that.

And yet I like how you smile, how you brush away silly comments and how you look like hard at work. I like the way we can retract compliments cause we feel shy and how we can chide each other when we disapprove. I like that we have a honesty policy and I like that it works.

But I hate the timing. This shouldn't happen like that; I've mentioned that I will not let myself be compared because I would never ever fair better. I say it okay for you to tell me but I didn't say it wouldn't affect me. I like you but I shouldn't like you now.

So be still my heart, be very still.