However much joy the holidays brings, it doesnt really come through when your entire week is spent in school. Friends drift apart, msn conversations seems like a hypocrital speech whereby everyone is trying hard to not step on anyone toes, leaders of each activities giving i-dont-fucking-want-to-know-how-it-feels-to-have-your-entire-body-on-fire-i-just-want-it-done sort of faces. Honestly, these are the times whereby i wish my cca allows me to bake cookies and my dad lives in dubai.

Doesnt help that im really really deprived of seeing my friends before I leave for america. I do miss them, you know. Im sick of waking up at 7.30 so i can be an hour earlier from whats supposed to be done at the time we discussed on, im sick of waking up knowing my lungs are gonna work so hard, they hurt at the end of the day.

I want to do jump shots and laugh carefreely, I want to sit down in the grassy patch located at the middle part of a reservoir feeling the wind in my hair, I want to catch a movie and then discuss about it excitedly afterwards, I dont want to live in a routine, I dont want to hide away, I dont want my feet to hurt at the end of the day, I dont want to end the day tired and unhappy.

I want my two best friends.
cause im missing them so much, it hurts pretty bad.
Please.

love, px 6:58 PM