Yesterday's netball training was hot, tough but really fun. I was tired but happy and I could tell that the team had really enjoyed training even though the sun was crazy hot. I think the back of my legs are now darker than the front of my legs. Haha, maybe now half the team is dark at the front and the other half are dark at the back.

Okay, enough crap.

Anyway, something I forgot to say during debrief. I think that training on monday is how training should be every time. It should have you girls ask how your teammates are when they start to tire out and to remind each other to drink up. It is how everyone motivates each other. And the loud whines when coach tells us to do our cool downs. It shows how much we love the sport and each other's company. It's how when one leaves and says " GOODBYE TEAM" the others are turn to wave and bids goodbye in unison unplanned. It's how you go home feeling exhausted but happy. And that's how I felt when I went home and had to do my assignments. I was tired, but I was happy. :)

Just one thing. Never let me hear you guys asking coach if the other team is strong or not. What has that gotta matter if we train our hardest, run our fastest and give in our best? And when Rsgirls unite, we are undeafeatable. And therefore, we're gonna kick some NB asses on thursday!

One thing that has been on my head being the root of all the reasons why I am pushing myself harder is because Ms Milhan once said "You're mentally weak." to me. At first I didn't get it and it hurt to hear it. But it slowly made sense to me.

I AM mentally weak.

I'm not mentally handicap, if thats what you're thinking. I just let myself give up too easily. Instead of the mass run spirit of telling myself I can do it, I'll think that I can't and I find reasons to not do it. And that's why Im mentally weak.

I'm changing, at least in the slightest way. At least now when I see a challanging math problem, I do not skip, I attempt and at times, I solve it. And to continue to make myself a stronger person, i'm gonna continue on with SCMC. It might be a graduation year, it might be a tough battle, but I'll do it and I'm gonna do a kick ass job out of it. And I'm considering the offer Ruixia made today about orientation camp maincomm. I've already turn down enough 'offers' from ruixia and if Yihui could do a good job out of it last year, I can too. I just need to, like what Ms Milhan said, pioritize. And since orientation camp planning takes place during the holiday, I think I can do it. I'll ask ruixia tmr, and hopefully, it wouldn't affect the usa trip that is taking place in the december. Cause 3 weeks away might affect alot.

Anyway, school work has doubled but I'm not gonna not do any. Well, except for that stupid piece of math ws I forgot to bring home. *smack myself* And yup, I WANNA GET 5A FOR EOY.

pleasepleaseplease.