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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Thailand was fantastic.
And the buys I had was just amazing.
Watch out for me and asw on friday. they are just one of the buys.

Uh, bought 5 tops (includes 2 dresses), 1 vintage bag, 1 loft bag, 3 pairs of shoes (yay!), 2 pairs of rings, 1 pair of earrings, 1 pair of watch...

Need I say more?

School has been so long and draggy recently and Im just so argh. Well, after school on monday and tuesday was quite okay. Went studying with thai-party aka iskandar. As well as syarif and martin on monday and Isk, syarif and asw darl on tueday.

Im too exhausted so I decided to come home today. Furthermore, I had a leviathan (very large) dose of Long shot - kelly clarkson. For those who don't know, I play Long shot really loudly when im bummed out. It helps, at least for me.

It's so hard to motivate myself when the worse always comes looking for me. Reading the sec4's blog helps a bit cause they are always motivating themself to study hard and all. Really trying really hard however it seems as if everytime I try my absolute best, it never turns out well. It's just so... depressing. Im pushing myself, Im studying more but nothing seems to come out of it. The hours of reciting chinese and studying chinese, and to get an 55? Really? All the just pass and the disappointing results puts me down and Im nothing near motivated or inspired. Im just... bummed. "Success is in my mind" is probably something Im not feeling at all, esp not for the forthcoming O level mother tongue! Looking at the results on the whiteboard today was a bit heart wrenching. (well, other than knowing how disappointed he is probably feeling...) Even those who abhores chinese has gotten an A1. Im trying hard to embrace chinese and to conquer it and look how far behind I am.

And comparing myself with others isn't helping either. It makes me feel even more dejected at how far behind I am from them, even though I'm supposed to be way in front of them. Ive only gotten back one paper and it has already made me feel so despondent. The forthcoming days of recieving the results look bleak and grim. However, I did hear that I did okay for E.maths, although I wasnt the best. Wonder what okay meant. I hope it didnt meant, it's okay, you didnt fail, just another c6. I swear I would go berserk! It would be like bursting a bubble, even though it already had burst.

Im should just hope for the best right now and let god do the rest.

Btw, asw and isk. Thank you very much for operation cheer up. It made me feel a lot better though I would advice you to sing and air band a song you guys know a lyric to next time. :D (Well, hopefully I get really great marks that operation cheer up never have to take place again.)


Note to self: Stop thinking about Him.

love, px 4:09 PM





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