I swear, ive been watching TOO much ANTM.
I go to sleep thinking about it.
It's like how addicted i was to the taiwan dramas. Damn, im dangerous. I mean the way im addicted is dangerous.

Anyway, the exams ordeal are OVER~ *do the crazy jig* However, there is still the Sports carnival! Damn, yuo have no idea how jittery I am, (though much of it is the ANTM) anyway, im worried about the weather, the procedure and the AWFUL LACK OF CAPABLE SEC 4s! Yes, extremely worried. Ohwells. I should not join the worry-with-hazel-over-everything club. But seriously, a great big hug would help.

Ohman, that made me miss so so so many things. even a slightest scent would sweep me off my feet and put me to 100000 years of sleep, just dreaming of... us. Damn. This is so not helping me. I feel sick...

You know something? I dont like seeing denzel in the morning. He makes me remember of lazia. and that's not good, since im trying so hard to forget.

I think i used exam to numb myself the past 2 weeks. I was so held up with all the stress i gave myself, i forgot about things. And to a certain extent, it acted as a anesthesia. It wore off now and then. It came hard to me that day. and what he said didnt help. It hurt. And right now, the feeling feels like an giant truck coming to me at full speed. Damn, this is awful.