i refuse to succumb to the rain.
i refuse to allow all these 6 months to go to waste.
I refuse to make all the tears i shed under stress to go to waste.

I refuse refuse refuse.

I am extremely upset. I did'nt want to waste the efforts that all of us placed in this carnival. I dont want all these to be wasted! I am gonna make good use of the second chance, make sure everything is done well. Im not gonna live in regret, no, no, no!

I really put in my best, i made sure i knew my roles. Now i know, that is not enough.

Shit.