Okay, to make up for all the short post that I've been posting because of the hectic schedules, I'm gonna post!

Firstly, I wanna rant about the on-going projects! Crazy crazy stuffs! I have to spend every weekend going over to Eunice's to do it, only to realise that in the end, everything has to be re-do'ed! The storybook was supposed to be finished, but only to be commented that it was not good or practical and have to be re-done. The movie that we have been filming for over the last few months can't be opened, and I don't know what to do. I don't want to re-do everything! It's so tiring and I don't think we will be so lucky to get the perfect rainy day to film! Everything will be so difficult and oh, I just wanna cry!

The literature projects were going ahead of schedules at first but now we don't know what to do with all the blood! So much blood and not sure if it is Ok a not, I really need to get the grade! Plus, i can't seem to memorize me lines. Even if it is short and sweet and I WROTE THEM. But it seems as if I am able to memorise every one's but mine! Even Hazirah's ten over sentences line!

And lastly, the deadly scrapbook design! Oh dear, how am I gonna make FREAKING 25 PAGES?! I'm stuck at twenty and I can't even seem to get 4 pages of the babies' growth that has information and is applicable! I'm currently left with content page, skellig's growth and the 'my own journey'. But all the ones that I've done isn't gonna make up even 21 pages! But I'm grateful about having Photoshop cause it really helped me A LOT. Don't know what I'll do without it.

Also, speaking about health and other mental stuff. Have been so tired recently with the lack of sleep or just oh-dear-i-can't-sleep-what-shall-i-do. Weird dreams about flying creatures and morphing creatures that look like Mr Suppayah wasn't helping; Dreaming about shopping with friends makes me wake up, staring into my room thinking where all the racks of clothes went. Also, the facial blemishes that makes me feel like hiding in a shell isn't helping with the self esteem. It doesn't help the fact that I'm already feeling too short, fat and ugly! Sometimes I really wish with the snap of a finger, I can change into an tall, slim, blemish free teenager where the last thing on my mind is how I look. Looking like my sister would be a good start...

Thirdly, would be the load of information that I try to make myself remember! So maybe maths isn't as bad as what it was one or two weeks ago, but other subjects are tough enough to make me feel like banging the wall. Subjects like geography and history that I keep missing lessons on. Last term, I missed out quite a bit because of Netball, then recently, I haven't been able to keep up as the lack of information were a bit of a trouble. Missing lesson on Tuesday cause of my toe didn't help, too. Dance lessons especially. Almost everyone has learn both dances but I'm always at the 'sidelines' because of the injuries I'm getting for over-exertion and just plain carelessness. I'm sorry Belle for making you dance all alone recently! I really feel very bad! :'(

Fourthly would be the friendship problems that I've been facing. Rumours that are hurting the sisterhood between a best friend that I cherish so much, attitudes from people who I thought would listen to me when I needed them and many other problems. I need to solve them, but I'm really not willing to give in, again. Since giving in all these time hasn't helped strengthen the friendship, why bother to make the same mistake again? Sometimes it's not just my fault. But forget it, I'm not keen to start another stupid cat fight. I guess the rumour thing is sorta cleared? But I'm not good at taking hints, I didn't get the one that she tried to give that day, so explain please?

Everyone throws a tantrum, but when I threw a unreasonable tantrum the day before, I'll apologize the next day, I don't ignore you when you speak and didn't even bother to look, cause it's just plain rude. It wasn't unreasonable when I said all those words, those were words that were true and applied, think it over and see if I was right. I didn't say those words just cause I think it sounded cool when actually it wasn't. I didn't even found it cool, I just found what you guys did mean and unfeeling. All I wanted was someone to be there to listen to me when I was upset and down but you were too busy going home. I wanted my best friend to be there for me, but you weren't. I didn't understand why you can't even spare me just 2 minutes just to listen out and be there for me. You didn't even call or ask if I was fine, you just tried to shake me off, how nice of you. I don't know what else you want me to do. I've already tried my best to improve the situation, but you just ignored me and didn't even bother to look and acknowledge my presence, not once but several times. In case you haven't realised, I hate that the most.

I've got nothing else to say, so I guess it's good bye.