When your system gets out of control, when you feel like screaming, when you watch the stars pass but you cant do anything.
Oh, how i yearn for your presence beside me, for that lovely grin you give to me.
When you smile, my heart melts away.
When you ride, i watch you go by.
When i went around and around, hoping to just see you around, you were never there but my heart declared, that i wont give up, no matter the end.
The promised i made, to leave you alone, till the deadly E ends.
to pray for you, till it hurts no more.
Maybe you dont care anymore, maybe you dont see the stars anymore.
But as days go by, you will regain, those memories we never reclaimed.
The hurts, the smiles and the happy lane, the one where you pushed your bike so i could ride.
Tho the shyness had blew the chance, you didnt mind.
You carried on and offered a ride.
A ride i never had, a ride i never dared.
A chance i blewed and the 'ride' i regret.
god knows when you'll see this poem, the poem i wrote after another hurtful moment.
But i believed that nothing will change, until the day i decide to go down the drain.
For you i will, for you i try, to be the one the old me would never find..

O what happened to the O me, where i laughed at your 'stupidity'.
When you waited overnight to apologize, i laid in my bed like a deep pig sty.
The next day, i saw your face, O, i still remember the regret that flowed.
The tears and fear i felt right away, as i saw your tired face.
The apologise i had to say, when i found out your motive.

I dont have much more to say, cause I can't say everything.
The pain, the sadness and the anxiety, o my love come back to me..