YOU ARE A BIG IDIOT.

But.. I wanna be the one who says.

'But you're my big idiot.'

x3

Im not gonna reveal who I'm sulking because of or who i am pouting because of. I'm also not gonna reveal who I'm emoing about while carrying my boulster around the house of. I'm not gonna reveal who I want to runaway to wait under the block for, Im not gonna reveal who made me decide to be independent. This is why I'm weird, this is why I am eccentric, this is why I'm getting yelled for what i didn't do, but this is also something I've promised not to give up, after 2 years of not cherishing. This.. Might be the biggest mistake I've ever made and will regret for the rest of my stupd life, BUT this, is something, I'm not gonna to 'realise' and correct.

Maybe, I might even start acting like the person, maybe I shall even stop being myself, I dont know. I'll never know, till one day, when I can't take it anymore, when I decide I've gotta have it, when i decide, Peixin is getting too lala, when Peixin...

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Can't stand being Peixin anymore.