Aspiring fashion designer who cant sew for nuts.
Love being the eye behind the camera and posting aged pictures. Obsesses over high waisted shorts and connector rings. Currently searching for bands to follow and love acoustic to the max.
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
why cant i get you off my mind altho i try and try?
i dont wanna get upset. i dont want them to worry, but i got veryvery emo. they dragged, they pulled. i didnt want to go cause i was afraid that would happen. i got so upset when i saw you crying[?] why, i ask myself, why?
i told myself to brace up. i told myself to be strong. but why do i go weak? why do i let myself win over?
i dont want to be weak.
yeah, basketball cheered me up. but i had to look. i looked, and saw what hurt me more. i swore i would never care, i swored i would never trust.
i trusted someone wrongly at first.
i got brave, trusted one and hurt him.
i trusted again, and got hurt, once again.
YOUno2 :just when i thought someone who have helped me stand up when i fell could be trusted, i was wrong, once again. early in the morning, i found out some truth that could send me right down to my grave. im happy i didnt fall for you, im happy i didnt trust you enough yet, i'm happy i didnt give in to my girlfriend and im super glad, i didnt give in to you. forget about it. you can take everything back. delete those smses, give back the book. even forget that i wanted to give you sth. it doesnt matter anymore, at least not to me. i dont care about you.
perhaps guys are not supposed to be trusted, perhaps im too likely to be a target.
YOUno2 : IM NOT YOUR BLOODY TOY YOU BLOODY SON OF A BITCH.
im a well living girl who doesnt trust you anymore.
i dont care about you and you.
YOUno1:i dont care if YOU stare at me and tell your friends about me. i dont care if you start giving me the smile that had fooled me once.
i dont bloody care if no one cares that the world has collapsed on me once again. i dont care if i get stiches, i dont care if i fall and im never able to play netball&bball again. i dont care, i tell you. i dont.
i care about xinying and that i made her fall.i care that joey sometime gets upset and i care about my friends, but not anyone of you idiots who lied to me . i dont wanna care. if i ever do, remind me about what you have done. i'll then realise what mean people you are, once again.
i dont wanna get upset. i dont want them to worry, but i got veryvery emo. they dragged, they pulled. i didnt want to go cause i was afraid that would happen. i got so upset when i saw you crying[?] why, i ask myself, why?
i told myself to brace up. i told myself to be strong. but why do i go weak? why do i let myself win over?
i dont want to be weak.
yeah, basketball cheered me up. but i had to look. i looked, and saw what hurt me more. i swore i would never care, i swored i would never trust.
i trusted someone wrongly at first.
i got brave, trusted one and hurt him.
i trusted again, and got hurt, once again.
YOUno2 :just when i thought someone who have helped me stand up when i fell could be trusted, i was wrong, once again. early in the morning, i found out some truth that could send me right down to my grave. im happy i didnt fall for you, im happy i didnt trust you enough yet, i'm happy i didnt give in to my girlfriend and im super glad, i didnt give in to you. forget about it. you can take everything back. delete those smses, give back the book. even forget that i wanted to give you sth. it doesnt matter anymore, at least not to me. i dont care about you.
perhaps guys are not supposed to be trusted, perhaps im too likely to be a target.
YOUno2 : IM NOT YOUR BLOODY TOY YOU BLOODY SON OF A BITCH.
im a well living girl who doesnt trust you anymore.
i dont care about you and you.
YOUno1:i dont care if YOU stare at me and tell your friends about me. i dont care if you start giving me the smile that had fooled me once.
i dont bloody care if no one cares that the world has collapsed on me once again. i dont care if i get stiches, i dont care if i fall and im never able to play netball&bball again. i dont care, i tell you. i dont.
i care about xinying and that i made her fall.i care that joey sometime gets upset and i care about my friends, but not anyone of you idiots who lied to me . i dont wanna care. if i ever do, remind me about what you have done. i'll then realise what mean people you are, once again.
love, px 6:50 PM