LALA!
he said i love you! hahas. but only cause of true or dare and cause phoebe.. sheryl and laraine took his bag away!
hahas!

walking with them was SO fun lahs! we were laughing and luaghing.. playing and playing.. haha..
todays oral talk was boring but they made everything NICE! lols.

haha.

laugh alot leh today.

hahas.
i'm mad and i like it just the way i am.
lols~

horlicks sweet is yummy!
lalas.

toopid cher kicked me out of class ytd.
SHIT HER lahs.

like she so good like that..
whatever!

LOLS..
bye people.
i'm stinking.

-girl next door!!
wo0tx.
nice s0ng.
ehh. kor kor chao cheng. must tag if you come hors.
lols.


the lyrics to girl next door.

Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny
she's lovelyPerfect skin, perfect hairPerfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealousI can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her
She is the prom queen
I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader
I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit itI'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next doorI don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else
She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader
I'm sitting in the standsI get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...

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I'M A NICE GIRL!
lols. decieving yourself is VERY bad. lols.

okok. i know you guys are REAlly sick of me scolding people..
but this apple deserves to be scolded.

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
if i want to hate anyone.. its NONE of your big fat business.
stop being such a snob.
you just dunno how many people hates you.
behind that big fat smile lay thousand of lies.
ever heard of THAT?

okok. must clear some stuffs. I NOT TALKING ABOUT LIQIN!
lols. i dun wanna quarrel in the blog again.
lols.
chat with ex didi again.
the reason why i use ex is cause he no longer my didi.
lols.

he ask if there is anymore chance.
i say i dunno and so on.
i dun wanna betray another guy anymore.

i found out the real reason i am scolded by HIM.
its none of his business.

really.
and you dunnid to care if i do any thing.
even i just lay dead on the floor, its none of your business.
cause you never cared about me.
never . but when it is him.
you care so much.
i dun see you caring so much when i was sad or whatever.
all you said is relax relax.
you don't even care. its like a memory disk in your big empty head.
it just replay itself. like a broken record player.
you are the one that always the cause of my friendship problems.
YOU!
argh.

and whatever crap about chang k=jing likes me.
what shit lahs,
and i dunno why my bro and sis know chang jing!!!
what the CRAP!!
CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!
what the shit.
what is the world coming to?


brrrr....

it makes me wonder how the mindset of a person works.
maybe theirs is just not normal.
I NOT TALKING BOUT MY BRO AND SIS!!
they rock okay!
lols.

and to nat. whoever you are.
the ones i call BRO AND SIS. is real.
shit you!

lols. that letter was SO OHMYGOD. lols. make me smile the whole day.
lalas. yea. turning hyper alrdy. aww. today no bball. cause of toopid oral lor. SIAN ARH! lame shitty oral. yst was BAD. today was GOOD. and i did not lie! lols. suddenly keep saying lols. cause of alson lahs! LOLS again. hrmm. lets see.

special things that happened.
- baobeii sis went to town with hui kiat sister, mei fuang. bought me a pair of earrings. NICE! the kind i like. lols.
- went to watch pirates of the carribean. super funny.and davy jones is SO disgusting. with the tenticles and starfish on face. lols.
- took neoprint with sis and didi. nice lahs. just that theres one part where the horn was TOO big. cos no time. shit lor. that pic supposed to be very nice can! if i find a scanner.. i try scan in.
-oral chinese and english.
-LETTERS!
-bought a jacket and top at esprit.
woots. thats about it.

aww. now cause i use TOO much computer must ask b4 using and like i asking for 10 mins? so.. ya.. 10 MINS!! shit.

lols. thats about it. i gtg. bye ppl.

seriously. i need to tell you this. i don't care anymore if you call me a flirt. its your business if you wanna be lame. it's your business if my bro pulls you into the carpark and scare you till you forget how to walk. its your life. live it the way you want. just don't spoil the clean nice enviroment i live in.

and for that anonymous. i don't care what you say. i'm sure you don't dance well either. and i have NEVER said i dance better than gladys. i mean she is like PERFECT? so. which ear told you i imitating her. or i said i am better? get your facts right. and if you wanna 'comment' on people.. pleas put your BIG name. i said please.

and ailynn.
i swear i DON'T know what you were talking about. erm so. kindly explain.

went shopping..
took neoprints.
watch pirates of the carribean. damn nice. super funny.
now running out of time so type fast fast..


erm. today oral was LIKE SHIT!
it was really horrible lahs. like er er er..
diaos. and my 49!! arrgh.
lols. really running out of time lerx.
been using too much computer.
lols.
BYE.

today was quite boring?
or maybe not.
don't really rmb.
hrm lets see.
school start.
-go to school.
when to care class for whatever oral talk.
but teacher didn't go.
so have time to talk and crap without violating rules.
cause n pared square we CAN'T crap!
lalas.
hrm. after that we when back to class had english.
quite fun lahs. talk to ms kalpana.
then. we had maths.
almost sleep. SNORES! zzz.
ms woo seems to be quite angry this few days.
hiash.
don't even know why.
but must have reason one. how can be angry without reasons?
right? common sense.
hrm.
then .. OH! did noteworthy SO FUN! discuss with ms woo.
like debating.
hahas.
lols. then we had recess. i eat ler still hungry.
then we went to the table behind the library.
listen to kexin talk about her torture by jelyn.
quite poor thing lahs.
' ting gu shi'
erm afer recess we had the boring assembly.
guess what we did to be happy?

SING LOUD LOUD!
hahas.
lalas.
after that we had ss.
i like it lahs.
cause ms jayanthi is VERY fun.
very sarcastic also.
then. we had supp.
eew. do practise ppaper.
some childish people laugh laugh laugh.
irritating.
so big already still so childish.
zhang gao be zhang da.
stupid.
then. we practise a while. but then atikah was angry.
also dunno why.
hrms.
then.. ms woo came in. she asked me if the class was noisy.
told her the culprits.
( you know who you are.)
then. she was lecturing the class.
i bet some ppl thinks i am a snitch.
but if you behave..
you think i can say anything?
think about it.


went home after that. then did homework. oh yah. HAD ICE CREAM.
lalas.
walked home with shirley. she just walk right up to me. then started talking. ...
-.-''. diao. then she is quite interesting? she talks to strangers las. hahas.lols.
then..later use computer. then me and peibao keep laughing like crazy. laugh untill stomach pain.then.. went for tuition. was also laughing.
lols. hrm then went home. then watch tv eat.. then. went to rp.
so weird to see so many evgians. then saw a majing table full og evgians playing. teachers also play. i was like. wadthe. dui lian.
then a saw a girl from charity dress like very old.. my sis say de lahs. she even said that she looks very old. lols. then. i saw sean and ben ng playing caron. and kenneth and the bro walking like what like that. then my bro and elder sis was fooling arnd with the vending machine. cause someone put $1 but nvr buy anything. then the thingy keep going up and down. lols. then. I DRANK BUBBLE TEA!! third time this week. totally love it man! lalas. then. hrm I SAW YAHUI AND RACHEL! i was like really happy to see them can!lalala. yahui very pretty! i mean it can! rachel very cute! and republic poly is very COOL!
lala.
and. cough medicine doesn't put me to sleep. lols. everyone in my family knocks out after eating it but i don't! hahas. funny huh?
this post is like seriously long can?
haha. and i found out that i am always hungry in school because everytime i'm in school, i am super high! leading my self to lose alot of energy and then need more. get it?
lalas. so cannot say i eat so much. and maybe thats why no matter how much i eat i don't go fat! good! damn good! and. i am probably gonna change blogskin. this one has too much problems. lala..
hrm. wrote one song today. but just dunno how to write out. i think i kinda forgot about it. cause.. i wrote it in a fury. not on paper but in the brain. da dah!. lols. okay lahs. end here b4 you go yan hua hua.

bye my dearest!
-pEixiN

life.
whats the defination for it?
the same as living in hatred?
the same as having crying as a daily chore?
the same as having to suffer through the experience of trying to be nice while the person is obviously pissing you off?
is it?
or..
is it just stupid?
is it the same as living happily like a fool?
or.
is like me?

just feeling stupid while i cry everyday.
hate my father.
hate everyone but some special one like sheryl, phoebe, darl, gladys, carmen, ben ng, hui ping and jia qin?
feel that everyone is more importent than me.
try so hard to not offend people while people are constanly offending me and pissing me off?
is not always about you.
living is also about sharing, learning together, loving one another, its about you and me not me, myself and i.

why do you have to see it as my fault all the time?
why is it to you that i'm stupid, everything i do is dumb and..
i live with you.
i have to go through this everyday.
making myself hate to go home.
making myself cry.
making myself hurt myself till theres scars.
the scars on my leg can heal.
but the ones on my heart are permanant.
they will nvr fade.
never.
why can't you realise this yourself?
why do you have to take me into your misery?
why can't you let me have that tiny bit of happiness?
that tiny bit of enjoyment.
that freedom?
why?
why do this to me?
i still can't forgive you for not letting me do what i love.
dancing and singing.
i begged you for the last one.
and now it doesn't work anymore.
no longer.
you are the cause of my misery.
Y-O-U.
my misery and hatred will cease if you just grant me a little enjoyment, freedom, happiness.
all i wish for is that little bit.
can you grant me that?

please.
i beg you.

pEixiN-
so much misery.

hiash.
so maybe its my fault lahs.
hiiash.
how could they?
but still hope he wun get caned.


he ask me to stead with him ler!!
wee~~

haha.
you guys dun have to know the answer.
and those who know SHUT UP please.

also got him as my kor.
but calling him kor very weird lehs.
cos call him di he too tall call him kor he too smaill.

hahah.
siao liao.
llalla~~

I LOVE ICE CREAMS!!

lalala~~
i love HIM.

SHIT!
someone hacked both my blogger add and msn!! shit!

hiiash...

damn it.
my memories.
all down the drain.

hiiashh..

but.. well.. maybe it is a whole new start.
cos this thing made me had more friends?

probably.

hahas. that person is SO mean lahs.
what have i done?!
erm. heard that sean is going to get cane.
although i don't really like him. actually hope that he will be fine and hopefully.. will not be caned.

GOD BLESS HIM.

hmm. hope this will let him repent. hopefully it does not make him anymore rebellious.
hiash. i can't help in anyway.

all i can do is pray.
i've turn holy?
hahas.

-pEixiN
it does not matter who i like.